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Saturday, December 5, 2009
29 and Beyond... LOL.

I celebrated my birthday last November 20 with loved ones. No party just a good day/nightout with my family and friends. I decided to spend it with Edward Cullen and the rest of the New Moon fanatics LOL.

My birthday started out around 11am in French Baker. Dessa and I had our brunch before watching the movie. Around noon, we were inside the movie house with the rest of the moviegoers. The movie lasted a good 2 hours or less. We then had our late lunch at Shakeys. We talked about old friends, Edward, Jacob and Eclipse LOL. I'm a fan of the Twilight Saga...not the movie but the books. I read it way before the movie buzz circulated around the world. I love the fact that they made a movie adaptation of it though.

By 4pm, Dessa left me at the mall and I met up with Tita G and my cousins. They wanted to watch New Moon so we or should I say... I watched it again for the 2nd time that day. We then had our dinner in Mcdonalds before I went home. Papa prepared a nice birthday dinner for me. We talked for a while and had a great time as well.

My birthday this year was way better than the ones I had a year ago when my father forgot about it. It was a simple day but the things I did with my loved ones are something that I would always cherish for the rest of my life. I am still thankful for the blessings I received and will receive every single day. I also want to thank Jon for his present. He didn't have to give me anything but he actually spent a lot just for me. THANK YOU.

As for the NEW MOON review... Hmm...It's okay. Like what I've said I'm a Twilight Saga Book fanatic. I like the movie but I love the books better. The effects were way better in New Moon but there were some snooze moments for me in this film. New Moon is my least favorite out of the Twilight Saga. I'm not a Jacob Black fan kasi and talagang I didn't enjoy the part sa book about him and Bella. It was a snooze, blackout moment for me pero I think the actors did justice sa mga characters nila. I think Taylor Lautner is hot and did a pretty good job. It just so happen na New Moon is my least favorite kasi kaya I feel like I didn't enjoy most of the scenes.

But I can't wait to watch ECLIPSE next year. I heard na it will be shown around June or July 2010 which is a good thing because I don't need to wait for my next birthday again just to see the movie adaptation of this Saga. I think this one would be exciting. Eclipse is my favorite out of all the Twilight Saga. Mas action packed and more vampires. Hopefully, maging maganda yung movie.

Also, I've been hooked to So You Think You Can Dance Season 4. I know it's already a re-run of the past seasons ng SYTYCD pero I love Mark Kanemura, Joshua Allen, Katee Shean and Courtney Galiano. I love their dance routines. I'm also waiting for the season finale of The Amazing Race 15. I'm a Meghan-Cheyne fan. Too bad the Globetrotters are gone na. I would love to see them sa final 3. In this season, either Meghan-Cheyne or Brian-Ericka sana manalo. I don't like the brothers. They play dirty and I'm not sure if it's Dan or Sam pero nakakairritate yung pagiging yeller/nagger nung isang brother.

Anyway, I am excited about my DLSU Human Bio reunion at Lucille's place in Laguna. I can't wait to see my college friends again. I'm sure to go but I'm hoping na wala ng problems na mangyari. I'm a little worried about papa kasi. He's been having stomach problems lately. I told him to take some laboratory test para malaman yung condition niya. I am hoping na this is just a minor thing. I don't want him to get sick or to have some health problems. Although I know it's inevitable lalo na pagtumatanda but I am still hoping na he'll be okay.

That's just about it... November is my month so yon lang nangyari sa life ko now. 29 and Beyond... There's no way of denying it na talaga. I'm getting old and I'll have to get use to it na.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAMA JEAN (RIP - 16), TATAY PETER (26), MOMMY (25), TITA ROSE (15) and RAINE (27)

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 12:17 PM

Thursday, November 5, 2009
Rainy Days and Halloween

My father and I went to Manila Memorial Park last October 30 around 3 am. We were the first one there. The security personnel told us to wait for 5 am before we can enter. Every year, we always visit our dead relatives early to avoid traffic and crowd of people. However, this year we decided to visit mama and tatay early due to the bad weather we've been experiencing lately in the country. May mga minor damages din pala ang Manila Memorial Park from Typhoon Ondoy. When we arrived there, the management were trying to fix everything. It was my first time to visit MMP na parang walang tao talaga in broad daylight. Usually, cars come in and out sa place and as early as October 30 may mga families na in their Mausoleum or tents. This time wala talaga.... We were the only ones na may picnic setting sa place LOL. Most people just brought flowers and candles then leave agad after an hour. I guess most of them were scared of the incoming typhoon that time.

Anyway, I prepared foods such as tacos, hash browns, cheese cake, bacon and tuna for our trip to the cemetery. My father even brought red wine for the 2 of us. We had an okay time. I slept in the car for a few hours and we had a good conversation until dusk. We were supposed to stay there until dawn of October 31s but I received a message from Jon about the weather forecast and decided to leave early.

Papa and I left the cemetery around 6 pm and by dawn strong winds hit Luzon. Typhoon Santi almost scared the hell out of me. We heard roofs, garage gates and other metal stuff being dragged in our street. Good thing typhoon Santi, in terms of rain, was not as strong as typhoon ondoy. By noon, everything seemed okay and back to normal. The weather went from windy to sunny. Parang di nagkaron ng typhoon but the weather is still cold.

That same day was also the 8th birthday of my cousin Jiro. I wasn't able to attend his birthday but i gave him money as a gift. I heard he bought a lot of toys and food. It was also their school's halloween party and bingo night. I heard a lot of funny stories about the halloween party since it was about someone I had a run-in early this year. Honestly, Karma is the only BITCH is really like lol. I also treated papa on his birthday at Reyes Barbecue and gave him money din to buy something that he likes. I also took care of the kitchen duties last week at his place. I cooked him pasta penne alfredo, beef-potato patty, chicken tinola, pork in pineapple sauce and chicken in tomato cream sauce for the whole week. I also watched a lot of scary movies for the past few days which was what I was looking forward every last week of October.

Aside from that, I opened to my father my plans of studying/working abroad. I tried a couple of colleges and universities. English Bay offered a good academic/work opportunities but as of the moment we still couldn't decide on it. Hindi naman kasi cheap ang expenses don. It would take a lot of planning and thinking to make it happen. As of now... I'll just go with the flow and embrace every opportunities that would come my way. I'm keeping my option open.

I have so much plans for this year and I am hoping to make some of it happen before the year ends. I rarely blog due to the fact that my thinky died last July. I still have to find a way to replace it or wait until someone would help me replace my thinky. In the meantime, I'm just updating myself through my phone or in desktop.

I also helped papa in arranging his SSS Retirement Benefits. Yep, he's 60+. He wants to use his retirement funds na. I am helping him process it. We also went to Bacoor Municipal just to check for his voter's ID. Sobrang crowded don last Tuesday. Aside from those things, nagkaron din kami ng disagreement about a certain issue. My father wants to buy a gun pero papalicense niya even yung pagcarry non everywhere. He asked Hanna, Dona and Tita Rose for that as a gift. I'm not really into the gun thing not to mention he'll pay 100k+ for everything. He wants to have it by January. I'm still trying to convince him not to buy that thing talaga. It's evil for me eh and sayang yung money. Hayy naku... boys and their toys talaga.

I'm also getting ready for my New Moon Movie Date with a couple of people. My schedule is totally booked for that week. I can't wait to watch a new movie again. I need to unwind a little after all the catastrophic (lol) financial backdrop a couple of months. Oh and yeah, Thank God Renz passed all his 1st semester subjects. It was something we're all hoping for because it wasn't easy for him to get into a good school this year. No pressures though...been there, done that. I don't want him to feel like he needs to do well every time. All work and no play makes "jack" a dull boy.

Anyway, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Uncle T, Uncle E, Papa and Jiro and Happy Burpday in advance to Matthew (RIP), Mama Jean, Tita Rose, Boyband Shane, Tatay, Mommy, Raine and MYSELF.

++ Been watching Amazing Race 15 and I'm hooked to Meghan-Cheyne Team even the Globetrotters.

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 12:22 PM

Thursday, October 15, 2009
THE SCORPIO....

Scorpio Astrology October 23 - November 21

Scorpio Strength Keywords:

- Loyal
- Passionate
- Resourceful
- Observant
- Dynamic

Scorpio Weakness Keywords:

- Jealous
- Obsessive
- Suspicious
- Manipulative
- Unyielding

Scorpio and Independence:

Scorpios are fiercely independent. They are able to accomplish anything they put their mind to and they won't give up. They are perfectly suited to being on their own. They are not social butterflies like some other zodiac signs and some actually prefer to live on their own that way there is never any issue of who controls what at home, they like to be in control.

Scorpio and Friendship:

Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.

Scorpio and Business:

Scorpios make excellent doctors, surgeons, scientists and leaders, they are perfectly suited to any form of business that makes a difference in the world, greatly impacts people and society and a most importantly, Scorpio has to be in a power position, this is why these careers are suited to the Scorpio, they all demand one person in supreme control giving orders and leading a unit of people/practices. In business, Scorpios tend to easily gather wealth, they make very wise business decisions and they are very conservative about spending their money. Scorpios are known for making money and hiding it, they will not announce it due to to fear that others will take the same route and becoming a possible competitor, or worse try to use the Scorpio to their advantage to use them for their money.

Scorpio and Temperament:

Scorpios are extremely ambitious, persistent and determined which is shown through a power hungry, controlling attitude. Not in a stubborn sense however, because a Scorpio will work for what they want and control will justified reasons. This is obvious to any onlooker. A Scorpio never gives up, they are so determined to reach their goal. The key to this success is their flexibility. They are able to re-survey a situation and take a different approach if necessary. This makes them very adaptable and versatile. Scorpios are fierce competitors, combined with their powers of observation and their excellent memory, they will recall facts and when necessary, bring them to the table at the time of need. They will win justly, with proper facts and arguments to support their thoughts and opinions. Scorpios are excellent at restoring order to a chaotic situation and they are just as capable of manipulating for their own greed and benefit. The un-evolved Scorpio is a very dangerous person because they use their powers to benefit only them and step on other people in order to satisfy their own greed.

Scorpio Deep Inside:

Scorpio is the most misunderstood of all astrology signs. They are all about intensity and contradictions. They like to be aware of a situation and always know what's going on, figuring this out with their probing mind, on the other hand, they are interested in the occult, the paranormal, conspiracy theories and other types of similar unknown mysteries. They are very capable of hiding their true feelings and motivations, they often have ulterior motives or a hidden agenda.
Scorpios are all about control, they need to be in control at all times. To be out of control is very threatening, even dangerous to the Scorpio's psyche, when they control, they feel safe.
Scorpios are very emotional, their emotions are intensified, both good emotions and bad. Negative emotions of jealousy and resentment are hallmarks of this turbulent astrology sign. On the other side, Scorpios are well known for their forceful and powerful drive to succeed and their amazing dedication. Scorpios are constantly trying to understand their emotions through finding a deeper purpose in life.
Scorpios are very intuitive, but not as in a psychic sense, more as intuitive into the human mind, they have a great understanding of the mystery and the power of the human mind.
Scorpios have a fear of failure which they keep hidden extremely well, should their confrontation not be successful, or their career fail, they will simply use their adaptive skill to quickly move and and leave the bad experience behind. Do not ever expect them to fess up or share their tale with anyone however because this shows signs of weakness and Scorpio always wins, they are always the self-proclaimed best! One of the reasons they seem like they always accomplish their goals is because they set tangible short-term goals that they know they can accomplish, they know what they are capable of and this is what they go for.
Scorpios are very weary about trusting anyone, a person needs to gain their trust and this gets built up over time and once all the 'trust tests' have been passed, Scorpio loves deeply and intensely. Underneath the cool exterior, energies and emotions are constantly flowing but the Scorpio deals with this be channeling this into useful activities, hobbies, relationships or a career. This is never apparent to the outside observer but knowing this fact explains why Scorpios are so passionate about whatever it is that they are undertaking. Scorpios have powerful instincts and they trust their own gut feeling which is another reason why a Scorpio seldom fails.
The ongoing lesson in life for those born under the Scorpio zodiac signs, is to channel their powerful energy into positive goals and not succumbing to the darker forces in life such as manipulation and greed, they will then have great success in their life and have a clean, happy conscience and a circle of friends they can trust and hold dear to them.

Scorpio in a Nutshell:

Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them, or anyone that they find weak. The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to them. They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because they need control for this makes them feel safe.

Just feel the need to share this since I'm a true-blue scorpio LOL.

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 1:08 PM

Thursday, October 1, 2009
Waterworld Pinas Due To Typhoon Ondoy

It took me a month to update my blog due to the fact that my "thinky" passed away a couple of months back. My tech resources ran out when Daren and Don left the country LOL. I had to endure the noisy and crowded netopia to check my emails and update my blogs/networking sites. Honestly, it sucks big time. I missed having my laptop with me everywhere I go. I am hoping though that by the end of this year or possibly this month I will be able to have a new one na.

Before I give you the lowdown of my September 2009, Let me just say this:

"MY HEART GOES OUT TO ALL THE VICTIMS OF TYPHOON ONDOY LAST SEPTEMBER 26, 2009."

Now To Start-off, early last month I had to stay at home and take care of everything since my father had to visit Tita Rose in Iloilo. I took care of the bills and the groceries every week. It was something that I'm used to for the past months since papa has been back and forth in Iloilo since July. My cousin and her husband stayed at my place as well.

Last September 16, Tita Beth celebrated her birthday at Glorietta 4. Tita G, Jiro and I joined them in Makati. We met at Starbucks and ended up watching "In My Life" which I found funny and heartwarming at the same time. It was a good movie for the whole family. Everyone can learn something from it or they can somehow relate to one of the characters in the movie. I give it a 2 thumbs up. Good acting to the main cast.

After that, We went to North Park Restaurant and had our dinner. It was a nice family day/night out which we rarely do since everybody's busy with their own lives and career. I got home tired but happy.

On a much darker note, 3 of our dogs died. Dobie-the-house-elf, Mr.White and Mr.Black died a week apart. No one can explain why they died. Clyde, a cousin of mine who is the one assigned to feed the dogs couldn't give us any reason why it happened. He just keep telling us that they were strong and energetic the day before they died. Honestly, I think he made a mistake in feeding or cooking the foods. (YEAH, our dogs have their own food - no leftovers for them. Papa likes to cook lean ground pork/beef for the dogs - sobrang expensive to feed them and aside from the usual dog foods pa yon). He feeds them like they're human beings not animals LOL. Everything is well cooked and the food is tasty. Imagine sa house namin - there are like 2-4 people lang pero our rice pagniluto can feed 10-15 people LOL because of our dogs. He buys lean ground pork/beef for them every week. It cost a lot pero he doesn't mind kasi he is a dog-lover and so do I. Unfortunately, 3 of them died this September. I feel bad because Dobie was my father's favorite and the only female dog.

A week before Typhoon Ondoy, my cousins and I planned to visit Candy Fair in Meralco Avenue. Thank God we weren't able to go. I decided to convince my cousins not to go because of monetary constraints. The Candy Fair Event was scheduled the same day Typhoon Ondoy hits Metro Manila. I was thankful because if we decided to push through the plan of attending the event, we could have been stranded somewhere in Pasig. We would have been one of the "missing family members" that day.

A month worth of rain in less than 24 hours was something I never imagined to happen. I was watching the news all day and it was heartbreaking to see what was happening in Metro Manila. I have so many reasons to thank for and that same day I realized all of it. I am thankful that no one in my family members were stranded, missing or flooded that day. Typhoon Ondoy hit Metro Manila the hardest but most of my friends and family members were okay. However, a few friends lost a lot from this disaster. I have a friend in Provident Marikina who I lost contact that day and Jon's family house in Cainta was also flooded. Good thing I heard from them the next day. Both of them including their family members are all safe. They were able to transfer somewhere before the flood went up to their roof.

It was devastating to watch the news lately. Most of them are all about the aftermath of typhoon Ondoy. Metro Manila became WATERWORLD last Saturday. I was fervently hoping for the rain to stop to avoid more damages and more victims. The typhoon was like God's wrath. It was scary talaga. I kept on listening to Jam Radio Station since they offered information regarding the typhoon instead of playing music. I heard a lot of callers announcing their worries and asking others to help them find their family members. Everybody was in deep contrition that night.

A lot of people from the government and media keep telling that last Saturday was not the time to blame others for this disaster. I think they couldn't really stop people from laying the blame to some politicians in the country. It was inevitable just like the typhoon that cause major devastation to the country. We weren't prepared for it but we should have been because typhoons in this country is as common as the traffic along Metro Manila. Last Saturday, the government and their funds weren't ready for it. In some way, lahat tayo may mali from the LGU to the people. I hope this tragedy will serve as a lesson for all of us. Natural disasters are normal talaga. No one can stop it but people can do something to minimize the effects of it in their lives.

I wasn't affected by the flood but I learned a lot and It's nice to see people helping each other regardless of their status in society. Well, I know not all naman helped wholeheartedly. Some kasi I think are using this tragedy as an opportunity for the coming election. But I am proud to those people who worked their ass off in helping others kahit na delikado pa ang life nila in the process of helping others.

Recovery from this tragedy won't be easy but it is possible one step/day at a time. Many lost a lot of material possessions and some even lost many loved ones but everything will soon be okay. God has his reasons for everything that we went through. Hopefully, we should take this shocking experience as a lesson to learn and become more united as one.

I also heard that Typhoon Pepeng is a super typhoon and will hit the country anytime this week. Let us hope PAGASA is wrong about this weather forecast.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JONJON (5), DAREN (13), TITA BETH (16), JAN (19), SIM (26) and HANA (30)

LET ME SHARE SOMETHING REGARDING THE TRAGEDY...

God knows what will happen tomorrow, next week, next year, the next decade. He knows what will happen in the world. More importantly, He knows what will occur in your life and can be there for you, if you've chosen to include Him in your life. He tells us that He can be "our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in times of trouble." But we must make a sincere effort to seek Him. That doesn't mean that those who know God will escape difficult times. They won't.

Reality tells us that we will experience problems in life. However, if we go through them while knowing God, we can react to them with a different perspective and with a strength that is not our own. No problem has the capacity to be insurmountable to God. He is bigger than all the problems that can hit us, and we are not left alone to deal with them.

Naturally when tragedy like this strikes, we cry from the depths of our souls..."But God, how could You let something of this magnitude happen?"

We have to keep in mind....

God has created humanity with the ability to choose. This means that we are not forced into a relationship with Him. He allows us to reject Him and to commit other evil acts as well. He could force us to be loving. He could force us to be good. But then what kind of relationship would we have with Him? It would not be a relationship at all, but a forced, absolutely controlled obedience. Instead He gave us the human dignity of free will.

God came to earth to rescue us. "For God so loved the world, that he sent his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God sent the Son into the world, not to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through him."

God knows the pain and suffering we encounter in this world. Jesus left the safety and security of His home, and entered the hard environment we live in. Jesus got tired, knew hunger and thirst, battled accusations from others and was ostracized by family and friends. But Jesus experienced far more than daily hardships. Jesus, the Son of God in human form, willingly took all of our sin on Himself and paid our penalty of death. "In this is love, that he laid down his life for us." He went through torture, dying a slow, humiliating death of suffocation on a cross, so that we could be forgiven.

He knows how hard it is... God gave us warning before, we just didn't listen and chose which path to take. God wants us to learn from our mistakes. He will never leave us nor forsake us. He brought this to test us and he will make us rise from it one step at a time.

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 12:55 PM

Thursday, August 20, 2009
All About HIM

I got inspired to write something about my special someone when a very good friend of mine tied the knot last week. It was an expected thing to happen since they're really are in love with each other but the wedding was really a surprise. I'm happy for her and her hubby.

Anyway, one of the reasons why I want to share my story is because I think it's time for me to be more open about it. I'm the type of person who likes to keep things private. I don't like bragging about it or sharing my "nice moments" with family and friends unless I'm being asked. I have no idea why but that's how I do things in my life.

I met him since I was 18 years old. We started from being an acquaintance to good friends and now we're best of friends. I consider him as my other half since I met him - the male version of me. He didn't become my boyfriend for years. He became my best buddy in all my guy friends, my shock absorber, my spartan and troy and my gibraltar. His presence in my life is one of the reasons I'm most thankful for. I never really expected in a million years that we will become more than just friends. But it happened...

He became my special someone when I turned 21. We broke up a year after that because I was too caught up with my school situation and so was he. I got sick and he was still there for me as a friend. We didn't get back until I turned 24 but we've always maintained a special relationship.

I survived so many trials in my life because I have him around for comfort. He knows everything there is to know about me. He makes me laugh when I'm sad, makes me smile when I'm worried and makes me feel special when I'm alone. He never gives up and that what makes him really special to me. One of the few people I trust with just about everything. I am thankful for him everyday.

I used to remember way back in "yester years" the things we used to do. We're not exactly the typical couple. We're both very private and maybe that's why we clicked through the years. He is the oldest out of his 6 brothers. He's a deep thinker, very practical and very witty. One of the people I know who could challenge me all night in word games, poker, name that actors/actresses and name that movie trivia challenge. We both like to join the Amazing Race Asia someday and is very much addicted to tennis. We can talk about Wimbledon and French Open for days. When I'm busy with some things in my life, he updates me by texting me the latest match of the season. He's a "Federer" and I'm a "Nadal" fan. Although, he admits that Nadal is his "man-crush" lol. We talk about what's on the news and other world highlights. Our relationship is beyond the usual "bf-gf" thing. We matured throughout the years and became more patient with each other.

I used to remember the fights we had. He used to be hot-headed and so am I. When he got mad, I fought back. He's a firestarter and so do I. We clashed in those first few months together as a couple maybe that was the reason why things didn't work out. But inspite of that, we managed to stay friends. We became more aware of each other's moods. We adjusted to each other's temper and before we knew it - we're back to being a couple. I was dead scared to try it again because his friendship is way important to me but I'm glad I tried. Since we went back together, things became really different - better different. We're like this old couple who would talk about things in a calm manner, debate about some opposing opinions we have, argue about our differences but in the end - we don't end up breaking each other's heart. We listen to what each other has to say. He listens to me and try to compromise on some things in our relationship.

You don't just get that kind of relationship unless the two of you have been together through thick and thin. It's still a mystery to me why we are together for more than 11 years. He's a goodlooking guy and yet he settles for someone like me. I'm not bad looking more like ordinary and simple and he could have picked better looking girls but instead he chose me. I don't have the perfect skin, body type or attitude but he's been there for me throughout the years. He quietly helps me through tough times without my family's knowledge. He's been there for me...always.

I sometimes feel scared of losing him again just like before. The funny thing about it is that he knows what I'm feeling before I even realize it myself. He comforts me about our relationship and he never gets tired of re-assuring me about his love. I sometimes feel guilty because I don't get to spend more time with him than I should have. We've been in one of the most trying times of our relationship. Being an adult isn't easy. We couldn't focus on our own relationship as much as we wanted to. He's busy managing his family's businesses since he's the oldest and I'm busy helping my own family as well. But inspite of that, we manage to make things work. I celebrated his birthday playing poker and other board games. He treats me to a fun day out and fancy dinner in different posh restaurants that I won't usually choose on my special day. He bought me gifts that I never asked him to give me. He even helps me when I'm having financial difficulties and gives good advice on how to handle my own money. He gives and he never demands. He keeps telling me that he's working hard now not just for his family but for us. Maybe someday - we can think about us - that's how he says it. He wakes up 5am and works until 8pm or 10pm managing their businesses. He's hardworking so we don't get to spend time watching the latest flicks or dining out. We don't even celebrate our monthsaries/anniversaries just like any other couples out there. We just treat our time together as a special event. We have plans on going to Boracay or any other resorts but none of it is a full-proof plan since we don't have that much free time yet. It's a good thing he's not the "demanding" kind of person in a relationship. Overall, he's a great guy, not perfect but way better than those that I've known from friends and family. I, on the other hand, needs some more maturing. I'm the prissy one. I demand a lot and even tried to be unreasonable a couple of times. I'm working on it everyday because I want us to work.

Bottomline, I'm really happy to have him in my life. A friend of mine who got married this year is also lucky to have found her soulmate. It makes me feel good to realize that inspite of the "lackness" and "nothingness" in some areas of my life, God gave me something or someone that he thinks I deserve. I couldn't ask for more.

I'm have a lot of imperfections and problems in life but I guess I'm just really lucky to have someone like JON in my life. Really, really lucky...too darn lucky - in fact.

CONGRATULATIONS NOODLES and JUN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE SHAUN and TITA GERLY

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEFF.

11 years and counting...

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 4:57 PM

Sunday, August 9, 2009
Midstream Changes

There will be some changes this month for myself. I don't think it's a drastic change but there will be some minor adjustments about my routines and some other stuff in my life.

First off, my sim number. This is kind of weird because there's really nothing wrong with the one I'm using now. I just have to keep my promise to someone that I would change my number for good. I'm sort of sad about it because I like the number that I'm using but since it's a request from someone I care about then it's not really a big deal anymore. I already bought a new sim pack last Thursday and anytime this coming week I might change my number for good. But before I do that, let me post here some of my favorite quotes from friends and family members that inspired me throughout the year.

"The most humbling statement we can say is 'I am nothing without God' and our most powerful statement is 'with God I can do anything' ... GodBless. - From Angie
A fact: You can always get the TRUST of a man but not his LOYALTY and you can always expect a woman's LOYALTY but not her TRUST. Gandang Morning! - From Angie
People always think that the most painful thing in the world is losing their love one but the truth is... the most painful in the world is losing yourself in the process of loving too much. Good Morning - From Michel
I really like this thought: "If it's not you it will never be you no matter how much I love you. But if you really are for me, then we will always be, no matter how I set you free - From Michel
Love is far different from commitment. Love is a gift which anyone can have. While commitment is a sacrifice for love that not everybody is capable of. It's just so sad that the word commitment is enclosed with duties which makes it heavy, which makes other people afraid. They may be ready for love but not for commitment. Come to think of it, Isn't love enough to keep a commitment? or... Isn't commitment enough to show you love? - From Angie
Best message I received so far: They love you but they are not your lover. They care for you but they are not your family. They are ready to share your pain but they are not in your blood relation. They are...FRIENDS! True friend scolds like a DAD, cares like a MOM, teases like a SISTER, irritates like a BROTHER and finally loves you more than a LOVER. Thanks for being a friend! - From Noodles
I want to love someone whose heart has been broken so she knows exactly how it feels and won't break mine. Goodnight! - From Eric
There will come a point in your life when you'll get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything. It's not giving up. It's a realization that you don't need all those you go after, because what you need are those who stood by you even if you never needed them. Nyt! - From Hazel
It is amazing to realize that living in simplicity gives true contentment. We go as we come to this wold. In the end, nothing is ours to keep. So, let's share what we have...smiles, knowledge, hugs, good words, time and love. Love More. Hate Less. Ignore Critics. Love Life. Morning Po! - From Hazel
If we are really in love, we hardly find any reasons to justify our feelings. We are dumbfounded as realization begins to strike our minds. Love was never like, 'I prefer my woman to be like this' and 'I prefer my man to be like that' - Preferences can change. You would just find yourself caring for that person no matter who he/she is or what he/she was before. It's hard to explain but it's true, that when it comes to love... There are no boundaries. No Yardsticks. And no reasons to hear why we love that person - From Arnel
Appreciate life itself even if it is not perfect. Contentment is not fulfillment of what you wished for but appreciation of what you have. God Bless! - From Mariel
Dear God, The lady reading tihs is kind and strong and I'm proud of her. Please help her live life to the fullest and bless her to excel in her chosen field. Help her shine in the darkest places and let love flow in her path. Please protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you most esp. in keeping her safe. God Bless! Now you're on the clock! In 9 mins. something will make you happy. Please share this prayer to 9 sisters you love... - From Zash
Every person in our life comes for a special reason...to touch or to make someone's life beautiful. That's what you are, that was what you did...and I'll always be thankful for that. I love you so much! - From Jon
Bob Ong vs Juan Tamad's view about LOVE: Bob Ong - ang pag ibig parang elevator. Kung puno na bakit mo pa ipagsisiksikan ang sarili mo gayong meron namang hagdan? Di mo lang Pinapansin. Juan Tamad - Bakit mo pa kinakailangan maghagdan gayong babalikan ka naman ng elevator? Kelangan mo lang maghintay. O di ba may sense naman si Juan Tamad? Tamad lang talaga... - From Michel
I hate people who breaks promises but I must hate myself more because everytime the promise was already broken, I still expect it to be done. I love you so much. - From Jon

These are the quotes I have in my phone. As soon as I change my number all these will be gone na rin.

One of the biggest changes I have this month was my online schedule. I used to be online 24/7 but since my "thinky" died out on me last July, I now spend at least 48 hours per week na lang online LOL. I missed my old routine but it's okay na rin na nagbago. I get to do some other stuff. I'm still a late sleeper though. I read books na lang most of the time or spend my nights talking to Jon. I missed plurking everyday lol - uhh.. no ata twitter na. I don't get to visit my Facebook and Friendster often and I don't get to blog na rin masyado. But once I have the opportunity to go online naman, I make sure na I visit and do the things I want to do. Lately kasi I've been borrowing Don's laptop or Daren's. Mine died after 5 years of being my confidante LOL. With 600+ pictures, 500+ music files, 40 bookmarks/rss feeds, 30+ ebooks, 20 folders and 2 family videos - nawala na si "thinky" - nagtirik na ako ng candles. I missed that laptop kasi everywhere I go palagi ko yon kasama.

Other changes for this month would be my hair style (lol) which I think is in need of a visit and pampering kay "Joy" pati na rin fingernails and toenails ko (lol). I really need to organize my schedule better to do more things for myself. I also want to save up kahit na mahirap ata gawin since my expenses are skyrocketing. I'm planning to buy my own laptop again or if not wait for my relatives to give me one (hmm...ahem! ahem!).

Also, I need to make some changes with my financial strategies. I really need to be more careful about how I should spend my money. I need to save up for myself and at the same time help my cousins din. I would really need a better financial plan to make things a little better for myself. Hopefully, I could do it without any more problems.

I also need to talk to my father about some certain issues with one of his sisters. I'm having some hangups kasi about it and I would really like to settle that issue before it's too late.

Overall, I think puro minor changes naman lahat but I would want it to happen. Midstream kasi yung changes...I already planned some things in my life lalo na pagdating sa financial stuff. It would be difficult to change things midstream but I think it's doable naman. I just have to think twice before making my final decision.

As of the moment, I'm stuck here sa house and I badly need some time away from all of the things that are happening here. We have some ... well minor or probably major problem regarding one of our family member. It's not much of a big deal but we're all worried. Hopefully, he'll come into senses and talk things through with everybody so things will go back to normal. I believe kasi na everything can be solve naman if you're willing to listen to each other. I'm crossing my fingers na everything will be okay soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DOMINIQUE in New Jersey (uhh... I think it's dominique's bday but I'm not really sure)

Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to SHAUN and TITA GERLY.

Belated Happy Birthday to JEFF.

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 1:15 AM

Friday, July 17, 2009
Don't Worry...Be Happy...

And Now...I want to stay young na lang again LOL.

Life must really hate me. I've been really busy lately. I'm trying to help my cousins from their school needs especially Renz now that he's in college already. My expenses are skyrocketing LOL. I can't hardly keep up.

I want to hangout and have time for myself but I couldn't because I have so much responsibilities. I can't just turn my back from all of it. It would be difficult later kasi. How I wish life was as simple as when I was still young. Now I know how hard it is to become an adult. When I was still in school, I always wanted to grow up fast. I wanted to do things without any restrictions from parents. I wanted to be independent and try new exciting things. I did all those naman but the other side of it - the ugly part - the responsibilities - that's a different story. I hate responsibilities but I also know that I have to do it and be able to handle it because that's what life is all about. I used to think I'm doing a pretty good job but there are times talaga na I feel downright disappointed at myself for not making the right decisions, not doing the right thing or not being able to handle my finances better.

Anyway, my "thinky" died out on me. After 5 long years with 20+ folders, 500 pictures from family and friends, 40+ bookmarks/rss feed that I don't remember anymore, maybe 30+ e-books, 2 videos and 600 music files - iniwan na niya ako. I'm so sad because it was one of my most prized possession. I always bring it with me wherever I go. Nakarating na yon from North to South. I rely on it most of the time because it keeps me updated and organized. I do everything there from planning, researching and blogging. It sucks!

Now, I'm using Don's laptop or Daren's laptop if they're not using it. I can't go online 24/7 na rin. I want to buy a new one and I know I can do that but with my expenses skyrocketing this month or in the coming months pa, I might not be able to afford it. I need to decide kasi which is more important - having my own thinky again or helping out my cousins.

I'll just think positive na lang for now. Hopefully someone in my family will buy me a new one LOL. I'm crossing my fingers - wishful thinking - im counting the stars and wishing every 11:11 lol.

We also have a visitor here sa house. My cousin and her hubby from my dad's side of the family are staying with us. They're okay. They're nice. I got the chance to get to know them since I'm not really that close to my father's side. Just a couple of days ago, she lost her 2nd child (well it was 5 weeks pa lang naman sa tummy niya). She's having problems kasi in getting pregnant because she's already 37. I am hoping na God will grant her and her husband a baby someday. She deserves it naman. She'll be a good mom.

I also found out that my aunt (again at my father's side), the one that I'm not fond of, is 7 months pregnant. It shouldn't be a big deal but she's the type of woman who thinks na DSWD ang tatay ko. She'll ask for money and the old paawa effect...

Good thing Tita Rose and the rest of the family have a back up plan. Papa is with her right now. Too far away for my aunt to reach. He'll be staying there for 2 months maybe...

BELATED HAPPY BURPDAY TO Clarence and KC... (sorry I didn't make it)

BELATED HAPPY BURPDAY TO TITA TET as well in New Jersey.

And CONDOLENCE to Daren's family. His dad died a couple of weeks ago. He's a family since he married Hana last year. Condolence buddy.

GET WELL SOON JON....

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 5:31 PM

Saturday, June 27, 2009
Movie Review: Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Genre: Action & Adventure

I watched this movie last night with my cousins and Tita G. I invited them because a friend of mine texted me the other night and told me about it. We got in around 6:20pm and left the cinema around 9:00pm. The movie lasted for more than 2 hours. It was okay. I like it except for the fact na ilang beses ako paikot ikot sa chair ko LOL.

The effects were amazing. I think ito yung nagdala sa film. However, the story was somewhat too much of everything. In the first movie, I was able to identify every decepticons and autobots present. In this film, mejo hindi because they were too many and hindi na nakafocus sa introduction ng mga autobots and decepticons except kay "the fallen" LOL. I think this movie is a "guy film" - you know - lalo na masyado very obvious yung mga sexy moves ni Megan Fox in every scenes LOL. Unlike in the first film, iisa lang ang flow ng story and Megan was just being Micaela - the sexy, popular girl in school. In this movie kasi, hindi lang nakafocus sa isang story, you have to understand sino si THE FALLEN and yung history ng mga primes etc. - TOO MUCH OF EVERYTHING. The consolation nga lang is that hindi ka binitin ni Michael Bay for this installment. Usually kasi mga 2nd installment bitin ang story and you have to wait for the 3rd one. In this one, tinapos niya yung story ng "Revenge of the Fallen" so that's good. I don't have to wait for 2 more years para sa 3rd. I heard Michael Bay wants to take a year off after this movie. So that would make Transformers 3 to start shooting again around 2011 pa and probably due in theaters worldwide by 2012 (tagal!). Hopefully, sa 3rd installment another good story line and another blockbuster hit.

If I didn't read the wiki stuff about this movie before I watched it siguro mejo confused ako about the whole robot things. I've read kasi somewhere a few weeks ago about the tri-changer or something and some terms na hindi masyado na-emphasized sa story. If you're a fan, you would probably understand it agad but if you're not into the "transformers" then you might need to read a little about the plot of this film. Wiki has good infos regarding this movie including the new robots and other things you need to know about it. I just couldn't remember kung may spoilers na don sa site.

Anyway, I think the movie is good not my favorite but good to watch especially if you're into robots and special effects. From what I noticed, guys of all ages appreciated the movie more than the women na nandon last night. Well, there were few girls naman who enjoyed it. As long as you're familiar with the 1st movie, I think you can pretty much understand and enjoy the film.

About the actors naman - they're all pretty good but I think Bumble Bee and the Twins are the scene stealers sa movie. LOL.

Worth it ng money mo yung effects ng movie....and just for the record my Tita G enjoyed it. We even caught her clapping in excitement sa isang scene don LOL.

Labels: Autobots, Decepticons, Revenge of the Fallen, Transformers

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 4:31 AM

Friday, June 26, 2009
Busy, Busy June

I've been really busy this month. I spent most of my time working my ass off to help those that I love. It's something that I love doing for them. Most would probably tell me that I'm too nice or too helpful, even at times neglecting my own needs which is true but I have no regrets. I want to help and it's important for me to make sure that they're okay. That's all that matters.

Since school started a couple of weeks ago, I've tried to provide some of the things that my cousins need. In order to make ends meet, I've asked Tita to transfer her kids from another private school and provided for their uniforms and school supplies. Although I feel bad that Gilbert wasn't able to study in his chosen school, I somewhat feel relieved that he's now enrolled in another university taking up computer studies. I'm currently helping him with his school needs like books and uniforms. I'm also trying to save for his per term tuition fee. It has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride this month but I'm still thankful that we were able to surpassed this month without any hassles.

I'm pretty sure it would still be another hell of a month this July or maybe for the whole year but I'm sure that I can be able to help them one way or another. Hopefully, my usual routine would go back na. I really want to take some special classes this year. I just hope I can also do that while being busy with all the things I need to take care for the coming months.

Aside from being being busy with all those that I mentioned above, I've also been addicted watching Koreanovelas at night in my thinkpad. It has become a hobby of mine na LOL. I've also watched and bought tons of movies. It's my way of destressing myself.

* BELATED HAPPY BURPDAY TO YHAN, CLARENCE and TITA TET.

* Also, CONGRATULATIONS TO YHAN and ROB for having their 2nd son a couple of weeks ago in California.

* Oh yeah, I was really shocked this morning to find out that Michael Jackson died. Tsk! RIP.

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 11:56 PM

Sunday, May 24, 2009
The News About the Halili-Kho Sex Scandal Thing Is Way Overrated...

Here's my two cents regarding the news about the sex scandal of Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho.

I'm a little irritated by this issue kasi wala ka ng maririnig now sa lahat ng channels but that. I have my own opinion about this issue and some may agree with me while others may not.

In fairness to Katrina Halili, I feel sad for her na kumalat yung video na yon without her knowledge. I feel bad for her family na madadamay whether they like it or not sa issue but I'm not sorry for her.

WHY?

I have my reasons for that. You see kasi...What goes around comes around. What can I say Karma is the only Bitch I like. Once tirahin ka non then you can never face other people again. She knew then na may girlfriend si Hayden Kho when he courted her. She knew na sa public pinakikilala na ang gf ni Hayden was Dr.Vicky Belo. She knew it and she ignored that fact. Another thing, hindi niya lang basta inignored yon. She went on to have sexual encounters with him without thinking the repercussions of her actions. Hindi nanaman siya minor that time.

In my own opinion kasi, it was okay lang before for her kasi hindi naman alam ng public yung nangyayari between them but since may video na lumabas she freaked out. I know she was violated sa part na pagkuha ng video without her permission but in that video hindi sya inabuse. She wanted it and nag-enjoy sya. She just didn't expect na aabot sa pagkalat ng video sa Quiapo and everywhere else yung video na yon.

It was okay for her to have sex with him nung hindi pa kumakalat yung video. It was okay na manloko ng tao and manakit ng ibang person na involved sa "illegal relationship" na yon at that time.

My point is in some ways malaki din ang fault ni Katrina Halili sa issue. Her mistakes and decisions in the past made her life complicated now. It's better not to dwell on it so much. Kaya naging overrated for me. Everybody's talking about it sa news and sa politics. Lahat ng senators may comment about it and resolutions. Sen.Bong Revilla got heated up about it which for me was really weird kasi sobrang galit eh. Parang personal na and it shouldn't be that way. It would be better if wag bigyan ng maling impression ang mga tao sa mga ginagawa nila. I'm from Cavite and a supporter of the Revilla family pero sobrang emotional kasi niya sa TV when it comes to this issue. It might make the people wonder why ganon. So siguro hinay hinay ng konti about reacting ng sobra about the issue. Sometimes kasi feeling namin malaki and personal na yung galit niya kay Hayden Kho to say those kind of things without hearing the story of the others involved in the scandal. Is it because dear friend niya si Katrinal Halili or something else? hmm...

If they really want to solve this kind of problem or video voyeurism (not sure if I spelled it correctly) di sana noon pa. There are thousands of young girls na navictimized ng ganitong klase ng problem. Wala silang tinulungan then maybe because hindi sikat yung person na involved. Katrina Halili happens to be a celebrity, a starlet pa nga lang yan but they made it a big deal. No offense to her but I got fed up kasi sa kakaiyak niya sa TV and saying na inabuse siya and binaboy sa video because that was not what I've seen sa scandal na yon. She was happy humping him away. She wasn't raped. Yung abuse na naranasan niya was very different from that. Ikakasira yon ng life niya but sana lang yung mga paawa na interviews magstop na. Just be straight to the people. I think mas makukuha niya yung sympathy ng lahat by saying na "She knows kung ano ang fault niya. She was sorry for that and ang gusto niya lang is justice sa pagkakalabas ng video niya na walang permission niya na kinuhaan siya."

I was appalled kasi sa mga binitawan niya na words in one of her interviews na "binaboy siya sa video and inabuso", i think it should have been "nababoy siya sa pagkakalabas ng video na dapat private lang or hindi dapat kinuhaan." She made it sound kasi na she didn't want the sexual stuff to happen as well.

As for Hayden Kho, I think he needs help psychologically. He's probably a sex-addict and yon ang thrill niya sa life. It was wrong for him to do that especially if hindi alam ng partner niya na kinukuhaan sila. It was disgusting in some ways and for that I pity Katrina kasi she was victimized by Hayden's sexual thrill.

As for the senators, I think its best to divert your attention to other important matters as well. If you want to help then try helping those teenage girls na may mga sex videos din sa Manila streets na mas underrated than this issue. Those na hindi kilala and those na walang pera. For me, mas sincere na pagtulong yon than making this issue with Halili-Kho one hell of a big deal. Help other young girls out there na mas kailangan yung tulong niyo because they were abused and raped sa mga internet videos. I've seen in XXX yung mga girls na nabikta before and none of them are okay now. Maraming unresolved cases non because some of them are not as famous as Katrina Halili. Mas nafeel ko yung pity don sa mga family and mga girls na they interviewed regarding their own scandals.

I feel sad for Vagni na nacaptured ng Abu Sayyaf kasi na-overshadow na ata ng scandal na 'to. There are plenty of kids na nagugutom and plenty of family na naghahanap ng justice. Yung kay Katrina Halili fraction lang ng mga issues na 'to. Let her lawyers take of everything since may money naman sya. It's not the end of her but a new beginning. I strongly believe na she can find ways to live her life good whether mag-artista pa sya or magbusiness. She has what she needs to make drastic changes sa life niya. Maparusahan yung dapat maparusahan. Ibalita yung dapat ibalita but sana wag na isensationalized ng media. No more media frenzy please. Maraming pang pwedeng news na dapat mapakinggan. Yon ang underrated.

I just hope and wish na matapos na yung news about them. Nakakapagod na kasi makinig about it. I love watching news. It keeps me updated but it won't help pagpuro ganon. It's been years since naging aware ang mga tao about the sex scandal internet thing na yan. Now lang sila gagawa ng way to stop that? Then I hope maging successful yung mga resolutions nila for video voyeurism.

It could happen to anyone. It could happen to any of my friends or family members which I pray and hope na wag sana but if that happens I would like it to be a family thing. To face it together without any media frenzy or i-sensationalize pa para pag-usapan and magkaron ng speculations. Mas nakakaawa kasi yung involve na person. People would forget it if walang masyadong exposure. Nagiging mas grabe lang pagnagiging overrated na ang pagdiscuss about it because people will try to search, watch and talk about it.

As for everyone, I hope this kind of issue will serve as a lesson to all of us especially to the young ones. Anybody can be a victim of this kind of scandal. Whether you like it or not, with permission or without - it can put you and your family to shame. Let you brain rule over your heart sometimes and let your heart be the guide of your every decisions. Don't just use 1. Make them work as a team para hindi nalalagay sa alanganin na situation palagi.

Labels: Hayden Kho, Katrina Halili, Sex Scandal

I.Am.In.My.Dollhouse posted at 6:43 PM